One thing let me lay straight before I begin... I am in no way going to expect to find a man, settle down, live off his income, babysit for the rest of my life and retire on whatever is left after the college savings have been shuffled out. Don't get me wrong, I'd love to get married, have kids etc etc etc... but I'm not going to base my future on something, anything, and especially not something assumed. I'm not going to say "when I get married....." but it's a more of "if I get married...." Paul says himself it's better to be single. All the same... I'd love to have someone always there. Either way... if it's God leading, then I'll trust Him. If it happens great, if not, I'll have a much greater opportunity to impact or change or whatever.
It's hard to even start... I'm interested in subjects ranging from delivering animals (pointedly tigers) from extinction to interior design. What I usually say is that all I really know of what I want to do is help people. Though tigers aren't people, I'm also very interested in animals.
I feel like the artist inside me would kick me inside if I were to shut him up, not that he was ever to loud to begin with. He's more of... a secretive man. Still to reveal what exactly he can do. But not ever exploring that... that may be a mistake. If I were to do something artistic.. well I'm not sure if there's much I'm truly passionate about within that area let alone good at... but it's something that gives me feelings of life. Something I'd hate to lose. Though it may not bene the career for me.. I hope it will always be a part of me. If anything it'd most likely be somewhere in the lines of design. I enjoy that. Fashion design is fun... but life? Maybe no. The biggest hope in this section would most likely be interior design. I thinks it's rather fun, but you never know if that'lll actually work out. Could be fun though. Then again... with all my siblings doing things along the lines of art... I'd much rather branch out. Speaking of which....
Something that has drawn me to medicine and the human body isn't just that it highly interested me by just being... both interesting and intreguing, but also something completely different from what most anyone has ever done in my family. I also have a few pressures from certain family members to become a doctor, per say. Though this area interested me supremely and would work out well for my hunger for individualism and knowledge, I don't think it'd be something I'd feel passionate about to study for ages and then practice for ever. I don't know. It's interesting and fun... but also a lot of work and time. I'd do something along these lines only because A) interesting B) very helpful for impacting many places. When I look in my future... I think what would be most fulfilling would be serving the world for God, helping other humans and providing for the needs of the needy. That's what I'd like.
Other things I'm interested in but am too tired to expound on to my full capacity are... work with urban teens, I like to write, M work, nursing, pediatrics, living off Andrews cash ;), counseling, nature photographer (random, only because it'd be fun) etc etc. Basically you can narrow it down to a few words urban, kids/teens, medicine, design, God, animals, counseling and overseas. I don't want to settle in suburbville destined to diaper change and cook, though I wouldn't mind those along with whatever my life is doing. I want to be doing something. Something at all.
Basically I can't say exactly the job that I want. Basically I can't name the place I want to be. Basically I have no idea what's going on. What I do know... I want my life to be full of passion. If I'm passionate about healing suddenly, I'll pursue that. Animals? I'll pursue that (though not likely, maybe as a side thing, who knows) I want to make difference in peoples lives. I don't need a nobel prize, I don't need a prestigious medical certificate, but serving, following my passion and God's, serving, that's what I want. I'd love to be overseas serving, but I don't would like to not be constantly moving or alone. I don't want to be lonely. But then again.. He provides. Whatever happens to me... if I submerge into a jungle or wined up on the streets of a city serving teenagers, I hope that I'll be following God given passions, skills and direction. That's my plan. And I still have yet so much growing to be grown. Honestly, I'm no where near ready to decide what to do with my life, I still am deciding who I am and what I believe in (give a break to those my age, it's tough)
Wow that was long... wish me luck! I have my entire life ahead of me.. excepting the past 16 years of course....
